Nothing much...

I've been up late for most of the time... thanks to my growing baby... but my hubby is working overtime as well... yeah i know... some of you might think that its not really work that he's doing but i'm trusting him that he's a changed man.

hubby has a new job and it was... from his stories before... a "dream job" for him... the office is in Makati, the position is of Asst.Manager, the pay and benefits are great, and the job description is of something he really excels in. i was, of course, happy for him since his career is right on track. how about mine? oh well, freelance i would call it coz i only come in to the office 2x a week. my boss is the best that you'll ever find.

anyway, since my son's grand debut to the world is near, i've got my own fears. one is that i won't be able to count on my hubby for support since his work demands more time from him. two, being left with 2 kids to look after to while trying to recuperate fully from the stress of giving birth makes it even harder.

based from my experience with amar, she sleeps most of the time in the morning and at night. she's most active during the afternoon and early morning. given that same scenario, amar is already a toddler and olai is as much trouble as his sister was, there won't be enough time for me to take a rest or yet to sleep. as much as i would want hubby to help out, i know he's tired from all days work. but it is up to him if he can help out. greatly appreciated if he will!

right now, hubby is in charge of amar at night. but of course, i do wake him up when amar starts crying and he's still asleep. early this morning, amar woke up and went to my bed. she is probably cold and her dad sleeps on the other side of the bed (i kept on telling him to cuddle up with amar!) amar was awake up to 9:30pm last night waiting for her dad to come home. when i told her that daddy wasn't coming home any time soon, she just went to bed and slept. i feel sorry when those times happen because i know that our daughter misses her dad so much... i spent 24/7 of my life with her... hubby only sees amar when he comes home from work and before he leaves from work... they only get the chance to play during weekends and when daddy is not busy watching cable movies...

i cannot expect him to spend time with me if he can't even spend time with our daughter. i want amar to get all of his attention when he has the time-off from work because she needs her more than i do. i still attend to his needs whenever i can and i think he does the same thing as well for me...

oh well, its lunch time... amar is sleeping soundly (she's snoring)... she woke up early today... and olai is behaving well inside my tummy... so i guess this is relaxing time for me... ciao for now!